I hope you feel better soon. Life sounds tough for you just now.
Originally Posted by redpepper
I am humbled and beaten into believing that the only person I can ever trust is myself.
Och - my take is that lots of the time, you can trust loved ones just as much as you can trust yourself. I think we can't always trust ourselves. We change. What we want now will be different to what we want in a year or 5 or 10 years time - even if we don't wish our desires to change.
How we react to and cope with change in our lives isn't set either - it depends so much on what else is going on around us. Sometimes our way of coping means we are destructive to ourselves and those around us.
Our loved ones are as prone to these sorts of things as we are and so I think we can't trust them to always do what we would hope they would and we can't trust ourselves either. Nothing is solid, safe or forever unchanging.