Welcome to our forum.
It sounds like you've traveled a long journey to get to where you are today. I'm glad to hear things are so much better between you and your wife. Keep taking small steps together, and I'm sure you'll come out well.
There's a lot of good threads here, so take your time and explore our site thoroughly. It's good to meet you here.
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"