Welcome to our forum.
It sounds like you've had a difficult time in the past, with not being able to be open about who you are and how you feel. It is great that your SO has been willing to learn about this very different way of thinking.
I hope you enjoy all your time on this site, and if you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask.
With much regards,
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"