I'm sorry you are hurting.
I'm sorry things have not worked out as you would have wanted.
I DO think that love is (or can be) boundless.
I DO think that, with the right people, at the right time, that boundless love can be realized.
Maybe not for you, now.
Maybe not for me, later.
Live your life, love it when you can, strive on.
Me: poly bi female, in an "open-but-not-looking" Vee-plus with -
MrS: hetero polyflexible male, live-in husband (23+ yrs)
Dude: hetero poly male, live-in boyfriend (4+ yrs) and MrS's best friend
Lotus: poly bi married female, "it's complicated" relationships with Dude/JaneQ/MrS (1+ years)
+ "others" = FBs, FWBs, lover-friends, platonic G/BFs, boytoys, etc.
My poly blogs here:
The Journey of JaneQSmythe
The Notebook of JaneQSmythe