Thank you November.
And yeah, I know, I know, I'm not patient at all. I'm learning it though.
A lot of what she's processing and saying is not comforting. It isn't necessarily painful, but it isn't comforting. Knowing what she's processing is comforting though, rather than presuming I know.
I don't know if being her friend will bring me joy or pain in the long run. I can only presume, since we spend time together as family friends, that friendship will feel good. We will see, I have the right to change my mind, I guess.
I think I will talk to her about her feelings, and doing what she thinks is right with her feelings.
And yes, not dating does feel lonely. I feel lonely now, actually. But this isn't forever, just until I get things settled in my head.