Hello! I'm new to posting on here but I'm familiar with the forums, as I've been half-stalking them for a year now. Haha.
A little about my situation: I kind of stumbled into a poly relationship with my boyfriend, we'll call him Guru, who has another girlfriend, we'll call her Farrah. Guru and Farrah were together for a year before I came along. It didn't start under ideal circumstances, but the three of us have all grown into it and we're trying to make it work the best we can with what we know.
I struggled with a lot of jealousy issues, and not feeling "good enough", but I have come a long way from there.
Basically, up until recently, he has been a pivot in a vee. Having a separate relationship with each of us. This went mostly well, but he was frustrated that we couldn't all be together. We've had a few casual meetings, the three of us, a few times, then took a two night weekend trip together (same bed, him in the middle). We attend his parties together and we all get along pretty well.
My main issue is that I do not identify as being bisexual, and I feel that is what is expected of me. I'm ok with kissing and a little touching, but beyond that I get extremely uncomfortable. If I try and communicate this to him he kinda just brushes it off and saying I'll "get there" eventually.
I'm not sure what to do about this, and I'm feeling very nervous about it because she'll be around this week, and also because we have a couple long trips coming up (all of us together). Any advice on how to tackle this? I like her very much and I think we could be very close friends, but the pressure from him is making me want to naturally push back.
P.s. thank you to the members here. I've learned so much just by reading all of your posts on here!