Got lots of reassurance from both Rose and Orchid. I should feel so awesome that they're together for the weekend.
My behavior wasn't so hot this week. I freaked out a few times, asking for reassurance, repeating myself. I'm not worried that Rose will want to have a monogamous relationship with Orchid after this weekend. I *am* worried that I have stirred things up with Rose and that we may not get back to where we were because of that.
All that being said though, I think Rose (and Orchid probably) understand that Rose's visit is difficult the first time. The next one will be easier: I will know what to expect, and I will know that Rose loves me just the same when she comes back.
But...how do I get through his weekend? Yipes.
Me (Lilac) - pan, queer woman, spouse to Programmer
Programmer - Spouse of Lilac, bisexual man
Not currently in relationships with others.