More sexuality confusion (does it end? lol)
Hey. I've posted here a few times in the past about my relationships (bf of 6 yrs, gf of 2.) Things are going pretty well.
Last I was here I was agonizing over my sexual feelings (or lack thereof) for my bf. I wasn't sure if I was gay or what was going on.. but we talked it out and have had a non sexual relationship for the past few months. He's been sleeping with other women and I'm still sleeping with my gf and just recently was with the first girl outside of those two since I met my gf (3some with the gf.)
I feel weird/guilty because.. I am starting to have sexual feelings for other guys. I know, just can't make up my mind can I? The longer I am in these two relationships and the more I discuss my feelings openly, the more I have come to realize I am truly poly. There's no getting around it.
I guess I'm just wondering if this is... "normal" - I still don't desire to have an ongoing sexual relationship with my boyfriend - but I'm fantasizing about being with other men. I haven't been able to talk to anyone about this because I feel like it would be seen as betraying my bf in a sense.
After my last few mistakes of keeping my feelings inside I'm wondering if this is something I should talk about or leave it be. Is it selfish to want to be with/be curious about other guys? I haven't been with (or even really been interested in) any other men besides my bf since I started dating him in high school, so it's been a while. And like I said the more comfortable I get with myself the more natural being poly feels.
I love him for him, and just like it's always been between us with girls, no one could come in between. Would it be rude and selfish of me to talk to him about this? After how open he has been with me entering into a serious relationship with my gf. Am I asking too much? My curiosity is just poking me to get some opinions on this lol. Thanks.