Is it normal to feel guilty when first trying an open relationship?
Hi there, my boyfriend of 3 years and I recently decided to try an open relationship and I'm not sure how I feel about it. The main reason for the open relationship is that my boyfriend is the only guy I have ever been with and I have been dating him (long distance) for as long as I have been in college; this is my last year and lately I have been feeling like I missed out on all the college experimentation that most of my friends have gotten to experience, and when I admitted this to my boyfriend he told me I should go for it!
Now my boyfriend is an amazing guy, he's never been the jealous type, very supportive of me and says if I want to experiment with other guys that's ok as long as I tell him about it, he's always here for me. In fact he says he's been feeling guilty that I never got to have a wild college experience and will be happy for me if I get to. I love my boyfriend very much and am very attracted to him and completely trust what he says. The only thing is that I feel guilty about wanting an open relationship because he is so amazing!
There is a guy in one of my classes who I have a purely physical attraction to and I wouldn't mind having a little fling with him, and I have been tempted to write to him on facebook, but even though my boyfriend approves of it I feel like such a bad girlfriend for trying to initiate something with another guy! Is it normal to feel guilty like this when beginning to explore an open relationship? Part of me would really like to fulfill my curiosity for this other guy, but I don't want to be a bad girlfriend. Will I get over feeling this way eventually? What should I do?