I'm most certainly trying.
I guess the shock of Nasa doing an about-face and deciding that putting up with the Boss was no longer worth being with me...despite everything he had said and done...really got to me.
I know I shouldn't be shocked to be rejected/ect, but dishonesty from my partners is a serious betrayal to me. If you don't ask for what you want, no matter how impossible, you're sure never to get it. And if you don't speak up when problems start (and how stupid, to break up over a communication issue that could have been easily resolved if he'd just TALKED about it), they snowball.
I'm sure someday the love I have/had for Nasa will stop being associated with pain. I just don't know when.