Thanks for the input. Her and I continue to talk and I continue to work on myself. It's funny, she is very aware of my trust issues and quite understanding. She knows that I have not given my trust to her fully, she mentions how she'll know when I give it fully to her and she'll be super happy because she knows she's earned it.
It's incredibly, when I'm not in the middle of some anxiety or depressive episode I can see so clearly and understand that some of my issues with her have no real ground other than in my head.