Sometimes one needs just to hear the words that are going on in one's head, coming from outside.
That sentence says it all. I am not happy with him, so I need to stop seeing him. The temporary happiness is overwhelmed by the longer term unhappiness.
Yesterday we had another chat and he said he'd be ok with the whole set up as long as he has two fixed days for meeting with me. At first I said ok, but the more I thought about it the more I was thinking "But what if CG or TKO or anything else can only take place on one of those days? I don't want to give those other things up 'just' to see Andi".
Clearer than this...
Thank you GG and Anneintherain, you really helped!