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It is usually wise to take things slowly, and find out what works for you. You probably already know this.
Will you try to pursue that possibility you had previously missed out on? In any case, you would probably benefit from interacting with various people here on these boards.
Please post any thoughts, questions, or concerns you may have. We're here to help.
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"