I know this is a painfull situation for you. I'm glad you can see what's really going on, and you're willing to he honest with yourself about it. That tells me you have the wisdom to figure out how you want to live, and the strength to build that life for yourself - regardless of how the talk with Abe and K goes, and regardless of whether they are in your life or not.
I understand things are painfull right now, but I'm very proud of you. Always remember to love yourself. You have the strength to be happy if you choose to draw on that strength.