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Old 10-12-2012, 05:12 AM
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Yes, that is a lot of questions lol I don't mind though, and I'll do my best to answer them all.. I'll provide as much info and detail as possible in case it is helpful to anyone.
Yes, that was a lot of questions, and I didn't actually expect you to answer them all. Thank you for providing the answers tho! I'm sure that your answers were helpful to others...although I am the only one that has responded, this short thread has (as of my post now) 101 views. Bits and pieces of what you have said will resonate in the minds of the readers and help clarify their own thoughts. So, "Thank you!"

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First off - how long did it take us to make these realizations? Well its been an ongoing growth process, not really a sudden thing. The open relationship thing started almost from the very beginning, we both have never really believed in monogamy truly, it was more like the default starting place in our new relationship when we first got together lol. If that makes sense.
It makes a ton of sense to me. I think that there are many people who "have never really believed in monogamy truly" who end up on these boards. One of the problems, as I see it , is that most people are never really presented with a viable alternative - so monogamy is their "default starting place". This is why I really respect those "polies" that are in a position (which I am not) to be de facto activists for awareness.


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I grew up on a hippie commune in the redwoods and have been exposed to polyamory from a young age and had friends that grew up in that type of family, so it has never seemed odd to me.
Wow. That is pretty awesome (and I would be interested in hearing more about it - by PM if you would rather not share publicly). My exposure to the poly concept came from reading a lot of Heinlein at an impressionable age and I was raised in a family that, while traditional and conservative in many ways, encouraged free thought and a disdain for "authority". ("Authority" like "trust" - had to be proven/earned.)


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She was the first to propose opening up the relationship... It started as a fantasy of hers for me to sleep with other people ..I ... have a significantly higher sex drive than she does, so I always felt like I needed more to be happy sexually as well. I began to explore sexually in a casual way and quickly realized I need emotional connections and serious relationships in order to be happy and that casual sex, or even very brief relationships are not my thing.
The amount of communication and honesty (and trust) that it takes to explore these topics with each other, and learn about your own responses, is considerable. I think that you must have been really strong together, even at the beginning, to explore this together.

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Initially it was hard for her to accept the idea of me forming emotional connections with other people, and not just having "meaningless sex"...There was a period of time when I was unhappy because my emotional needs were not fulfilled due to not seeking real connections in my other "relationships". That was followed by a period of adjustment for her once she decided she did want me to find emotional fulfillment through a real relationship with another person.
THIS, I think, is a major hurdle for many - and what trips up a lot of people. They end up turning to swinging to "fill up" what they think they are missing. I have seen a number of couples come here via the "swinging but not satisfied" route. I think your story will give some perspective to their situation,

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I find that I get so close and my ability and need to connect emotionally and physically is such that no one person has ever been enough. Meanwhile she feels overwhelmed by me without another person in the picture, but otherwise she insists she is happy with or without another person (that is also how some of my girlfriends have felt)
From the flip side I can see where she is coming from, I feel overwhelmed by Dude, at times, without another person in the picture. I happen to have another person in MY picture (my husband). I am plenty for MrS, MrS + Dude is more than plenty for me (except when I need "girl" energy - and I have FWB and crushes for that). I think that one (or two or ?) may not be enough to "fill" Dude's need for connection and physical affection (MrS teases that "now" I know how it feels... )

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So how long did these relationships last? It varies, but probably averaged a few months. The longest have been a couple of relationships I had that lasted between 1 and 2 yrs. The most recent was a few months.

Why did they end? Oddly enough, it usually had nothing to do with the polyamory. Just standard incompatibilities, often lifestyle differences. Stuff that takes time to realize this person isn't a true match longterm, or they realize it, though it wasn't an issue as much in the short term perhaps. Like enjoying clubbing vs nature/hiking, or political differences or just way different philosophies and outlooks on life (true examples lol). We are very down to earth people who aren't into a lot of frills and fashion and social games. We prefer cheap beer to wine, and we shop at thrift stores and we like people to just be real . Life is too short lol
Thank you for expanding! For me, I am unlikely to even engage with someone who has major lifestyle differences - we wouldn't even be friends, so I would see them as a potential partner. Someone who likes "clubbing"? would have to be VERY special. Although we DO prefer expensive beer (we are, all three, beer snobs, the only kind of snobs we are) - definitely with you on the shopping at thrift stores.


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Where did we meet them? Well the V ones where my wife wasn't directly in the relationship were mostly people I met socially, parties, through friends, going out on the weekends, and they were people interested in me that didn't object to me being married and in a poly relationship.
This goes nicely with a lot of advice that we give on this board i.e. "go out and socialize with people that enjoy the same things you do...be open to meeting people generally."

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The triad ones have been personals adds so far lol.

Overall we have found that the triads work best for us. She has grown more and more interested in connecting with the same person I connect with. We have also found that (for us) there is more potential for drama and jealousy when there are separate relationships happening simultaneously, though not always. But triads are also the most difficult to establish for us. Partly because the two of us are so different emotionally. We have a lot of interests in common and enjoy the same kinds of conversation and recreational activities and have similar life goals, so as long as another person also enjoys that stuff then we can all be pretty much lifestyle compatible. However we form very different kinds of relationships and connect at very different levels. So it has been a challenge to find a person who actually wants both kinds of connections, if that makes sense.
This resonates with the advice we often give to "Unicorn Hunters" - many couples are seeking a third (usually female) partner that connects equally with both partners. Which seems to be often sought and seldom achieved.


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...Some people truly enjoy the dating process itself and find it exciting and fulfilling. In fact, I personally have met people who I am convinced consider themselves polyamorous not because they truly are wired to "love more than one" and need a serious relationship with more than one person, but because they don't want to ever stop dating lol. To me those are two different things.
This is very insightful...and, I think, true. Personally, the whole concept of "dating" is distasteful to me - and seems like you are "auditioning" people to fit a pre-determined role (NYCindie views dating much differently - I think the difference is that she likes meeting new people, and I don't)

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Well, there's a novel!
Yes, it was a novel and I thank you for it! Whether anyone else responds to this thread, you have shared some excellent insight as to a path that one couple has taken.

Welcome to the forums and thank you for your story!

Jane!
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SLeW: platonic hetero girlfriend and BFF
MrClean: hetero mono male, almost lover-friend to me, FWBs to SLeW
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