New to the site but not the lifestyle
Figured I'd post in here and share some information about me and hopefully get to know some like minded individuals.
I've been poly on and off over the course of probably a year. I firmly believe it is possible to love more then one person, I think others maybe are just afraid to embrace those feelings because honestly it is against societies norms.
It's hard to say what exactly I have going on at the moment as I don't have what I consider to be a primary. When I think of a primary I think
Of someone who ultimately has my back and is deeply committed to me but has other relationships.
I can find secondary situations with ease but I find my need for more to be quite abundant. Sure I might go out 3-4 nights a week with the same people however it kind of has a behind the scenes kind of feeling. What I mean by this is I go home by myself and they go home to their significant other. What about having a solid life partner? What about having someone to spend the holidays with? What about someone being there for me when I need them?
I wouldn't say I'm a jealous person at all, and it's hard to pin point where these feelings are coming from exactly. Maybe I just want more then others are capable of. I'm sure others feel this way too. I find poly can be slightly limited if your not bisexual (I'm not) for what ever reason.
I also seem to find that others don't exactly share my views regarding poly. I probably have more of a family view to poly. I enjoy the company of many people. I enjoy going out with other partners. Communication is extremely important to me and could possibly be one of the biggest deal breakers. I don't look to sweep relationships under the carpet. So maybe I'm just currently feeling frustrated.