So at this point I am kind of beginning to check out of the relationship. Part of me wants to try to convince him that what he wants will never happen -- it's like quitting your job because your dream is to win the lotto and claiming you'll never be happy otherwise. But part of me is starting to feel like...jesus christ, forget this guy.
Can't blame you. I'd feel the same way. Just check out so I can get ME to a healing place and then move toward my next future happiness.
I know this isn't fun to feel. Hang in there.
Hopefully your long term health/happiness will come soon even if you have to pass thru some short term UGH to get there.