I have no great advice but your story touched me regardless. Simply be honest about what you want. Take a look at the relationship without considering anything besides the connection you have with your husband. Forget the house, retirement plans, kids, family pressure, and everything else just for a while. That is the stuff that artificially bonds people together.
When you reach that point of just seeing you and him, then listen to what your heart says. This is where I find my truth.
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