Bright and Shiny New!
I'm the Brass Valkyrie. I'm nineteen years old, female and exceptionally new to polyamory. I think. I hope.
I've always been a very open-minded person, so when I got out of my previous relationship (with one man) and was asked out by a married poly couple, I figured it was worth trying. Both of my partners are bi, and so am I, but in different ways. The guy (J) is straight down the middle, but his wife (C) has a definite feminine preferences.
There are a few things in the relationship that make me feel awkward. Some of the biggest things are the age gaps. J is seven years older than me, C is five. I feel like they're further into their lives, and I get a constant third-wheel feeling, since they've been together twelve years.
Another issue, a much larger one is that while I'm bi as well, I definitely like guys more. Topping off that, I have a lot more in common with J than C. I care for them both deeply, so I'm constantly worrying about keeping everything equal.
I think the thing that could bring the whole happy house of cards down though is that I'm not 100% sure about polyamory. And since I do care for J and C, I'm always worrying I'll realise being poly isn't for me and break their hearts.
So that's my poly in a nutshell! I hope that I haven't bothered anyone with my wall of text, but it's good to be here with all the resources I could need.