Well things are getting better. YEAH! I think after I came on here and truely admited how I felt I was really able to deal with what it was that I was really feeling and it has given me the strength to move on.
I never regret that things happen. I truely believe that things happen for a reason. I may not understand the reasonings behind it right now but I eventually will.
I think the awkwardness is almost gone between Beauty and Bear. Which is nice because I HATE awkwardness. Do I still feel very strongly for Beauty YES but I know that I must move on as she is also doing and I really dont want to lose her friendship over this.
Plus with school and work and OU Boy I dont have time to dwell on the what ifs and what could of been. I want to move forward.
Things with OU Boy are really hot and heavy right now and I know alot of that is the NRE but I like it and right now I am happy and that is what really truely matters.