Welcome to our forum.
Sounds like polyamory has proved to be a challenge to you in the past. I hope you have a better go of it this time around. Take advantage of the many threads on Polyamory.com that can shed light on a subject, and post if you get a thought, question, or concern you want to share.
Glad to have you with us,
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"