The only question you really have to ask YOURSELF is why do you walk towards? You will live the way you do now until you answer that question and learn how to walk away.
This point has been driven home so many ways, and well before I came and asked the question.
I'd say this has been a learning experience for me. Each time, I avoided that question, I got hit by the clue stick, and each time it hit harder.
I've been sure of these answers for a while. I came here to ask, because of self doubt, that little voice that says, maybe it's your ego, maybe you are just jealous. To avoid hubris.
What do I walk towards? One thing is, to be happy just to be by myself. To have clear direction, and move towards it. To build my life, not spin and spin and spin.