Originally Posted by Urvile
... and face her directly.
Facing her is a waste of time. How many years? You are still missing the point. It's time to face yourself, and ask all the questions.
There are a lot of dishonest people in this world. They may be the toll taker, the construction worker, the guy who lives 5 doors down from me, the airplane mechanic, etc. I don't know where they are all hiding right now.
I do know one thing, none of them are in my life in any personal way. Why is that? I have developed a skill that I call walking away. I do that at the slightest hint of dishonesty. You have developed a skill called walking toward. The words you wrote that I quoted for this reply shout that from the mountain tops.
The only question you really have to ask YOURSELF is why do you walk towards? You will live the way you do now until you answer that question and learn how to walk away.
The answer to that question is about you. It's not about anyone else. The more you look at her, the more you miss the point. Self reflection is key here.