Chronic pain is horrible. I hope everything goes well and you don't need the back surgery.
I have a hard time dealing with other people's pain. It makes me feel helpless.
So sorry if I'm at a loss but I wish you the best
Often he had been often bound with fetters and chains, and the chains had been rent asunder by him, and the fetters broken in pieces: neither could any man tame him...and he asked him, What is thy name? And he answered, saying, My name is Legion: for we are many.