Happy B'day, Castalia!
Opalescent, I have tried to turn it around in my mind and let go of the nostalgic feelings I've attached to the stuff of my marriage. Truth is, I am looking forward to starting over with a whole new decor (someday in the future when I'm flush with funds). But sadness comes up sometimes anyway. I feel it, then let it go.
How am I doing today? I am up and down.
Up: Elated that Chessy had his surgery and went home. Looking forward to seeing how this relationship goes.
Down: Sad about difficulties in another relationship.
Up: Grateful for some good friends in my life, one of whom really helped me out in a big way recently, and certain members of my family who are also looking out for me.
Down: Overwhelmed and feeling burdened when I look at my To-Do Lists.
Up: Relieved that my rent is paid for August. Hopeful about a job interview I had last week.
Down: Wishing I didn't need to sell my shit to make the rent next month. Bummed that I haven't heard back about that job yet.
Basically, how am I doing? Like the Cyclone at Coney Island: