I second guess my self. It's like "hey, I'm going to go ahead and be vulnerable and show you me, but oh, damn, something already feels wrong just in the fact that I don't expect to be reciprocated. Well, this is just awkward." It's a catch 22; to be comfortable with her in particular, I need to feel like she's actually interested. She's not very interested in a romantic or passionate way because I'm feeling so awkward and unappreciated that I can't just operate like I do with others.
Regarding her manipulative capabilities, it's not so much a fascination as it is something I just found interesting as a psychological study.
Last edited by Sarcophagus; 08-07-2012 at 10:13 PM.