I feel your pain. Sigh.
WHY people do this Muppet Show thing instead of just playing like honorable Jedi?
It's not like polyamory says "No!" -- it just says "Slow, please. Be easy with my heart too."
Sigh. It is only in the human simmer that we get the opportunities to become our best selves. You are at a crossroads moment.
Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
Know you have my support from afar in your time of need, even if the expression of it can only here be so tiny.
*hugs again anyway.*