Originally Posted by GalaGirl
(Frankly, I don't care. You are both still internet strangers to me but so far I see you doing the hard work of personal growth, so I'm more sympathetic to you. I know it burns. Hang Time at the Forge. And here you are, trying to suck it up and roll. Kudos, BTW!)
Haha, this made my morning! Thank you. I still have a lot of growing myself to do. I should probably add to the blog my own faults, especially as I've accepted my, albeit admittedly small, part of the problem. I am a very disorganized person. I am horrible at cleaning. I was never, ever meant to be a housewife. I'm used to have someone there with me while I clean to talk to (big family), or being able to play music loudly (oldest son is autistic, so he gets upset when I play loud music).
So when I'm depressed, I don't want to do squat. So I know that i'm not blameless, but as you said, I've been working on my own personal growth, and trying to come out of this a ... stronger person, if I can't be a better one. And while my self-esteem isn't where it should be (I took a pretty critical hit with this), I'm trying not to use others to determine my self worth... I've got a lot of reading ahead of me, which, luckily, I enjoy. I appreciate you guys giving me advice that I can actually use, and research.