I am so glad to hear that you are doing what you need to do to be safe and work through past scars (and recent ones...). I don't know if you remember me, but I remember you from when I was on here about a year ago.
I can hear in your "voice" that you are an incredibly sensitive and lovable soul. AA is a great place to go for support and to learn more about yourself as well as others.
You deserve to be happy and healthy (emotionally and physically). I send hugs and best wishes to you! Feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk.
Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope. - Maya Angelou