the only thing I can say is that I'm happy you are facing these phantoms, and with determination. Oftentimes things happen to us and we deal by pushing them down down down until it's almost like they never happened. Then life reminds us that yes, it's all still there. Sending you nothing but hugs and positivity on this new journey.
Whenever you're able, keep us in the loop. I hope you gain some clarity and understanding soon.