Thanks guys for letting me get all this off my chest, I haven't really had anyone I can talk to about what's going one so thanks so much!
Yeah my feelings are in kinda deep, but hearing these words got the cogs in my brain turning and I'm getting over it. I really really needed to hear what you guys said!
It's something that wasn't going to happen anyway, any what was the point of getting so worked up over it?
I'm going to just work on being friends with him, if possible.