I just wanted to welcome you to our forum.
It sounds like you're working on a unique relationship dynamic, and I can see your point about "just wanting a rest from it all" for awhile.
I think you'll find Polyamory.com is a good place to get advice and feedback, although be aware that your blog thread is kind of "sacred ground" and people might hesitate to give you "too much instruction" there. I guess what I'm saying is, be sure to check out other threads and boards, and post there too sometimes.
I'm glad you could join us.
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"