I was not very chill. She was actually really great and comforting. I apologized this morning and she said not to worry about it.
I do not keep my cool. I freak out and shut down very badly. In general, in life, I can be pretty competent and together, but with all of this poly stuff I have been a fucking train wreck.
My failure was that part -- not being able to be calm and reasonable. I lost my temper and said some terrible things.