thank you for the welcome.
I hope I can find someway to sort through and process this pain. I have been reading all day. My husband and I have talked about how losing her doesn't make poly life any less of a valid choice, and it remains right for us.But I need to grieve the loss of my love, and it's not fair for me to take another person through that with me right now, so I guess I'm supporting my husband and his choices, but taking a break for myself. I am sure I will jump right back in with two feet once I get my bearings. In fact, I am looking forward to growing from this and grateful for the lessons I learned.