Have you ever heard the expression, "You can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink."?
Love is the same way. You cannot force someone to love you. Love cannot be compelled.
I'm afraid I agree with the others... it seems that you're bordering on being a stalker, and you need professional help.
Pinky, 41, f, bi. Married to Bear, 42, m, straight.
Not dating anyone right now.
I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.--EAP