Thanks Phy and GreenMom!
Gia happened to be in my neighborhood after work today, getting some work done on her car. We walked around for an hour or so, stopped into shops, talked casually. It was really nice.
Several days ago, I mentioned the idea of getting together for a just-us date soon. We've been seeing each other very regularly lately, but never for long alone. She said she didn't think she'd be able to make that happen this month, so we're looking at early next month. Disappointing, but I know she's feeling really overwhelmed and crazy lately, so I get it. I want to be a positive force in her life, not a stressor. Just frustrating. :/
Well, I felt a little better about it after this.
While we were walking, she said that she had an idea for our next date. She's going to find a complicated recipe that she'd love to try but that requires a ton of prep (gathering ingredients, julienning things, etc). I'll be in charge of getting the prep all done perfect, then helping her cook, then we'll chill and eat. From the way she framed it ("I was thinking you might like this... I'm going to give you a list of tasks to perform...), I know she was thinking of it as a D/s thing. It's actually very along the lines of some of the ideas presented at the feminine dominance class we went to. And at the same time it's perfectly her and perfectly us.
I agreed to the idea enthusiastically, she linked her arm around my waist and we walked along like that, grinning.
It just thrills me to see her to begin to develop confidence in this area. It's such a gift to me, for her to take the time to think through how to hit my buttons in a way that will also hit hers and that will fit into the way we live and love together. I adore how she finds the femme-iest ways to start to dom me (marking me with lipstick, ordering me to help her cook fancy food).
Unf, there has literally been a years-long build-up to us exploring this dynamic together. My sweet, beautiful, strong lady. I'm in this with you whatever we end up making of it, but I'm ready to be so much more yours, if you just could let me.
In the meantime, I spend a lot of time looking at kinky stuff on tumblr and daydreaming...