Oh, I love your babbling. I like to babble too.
Hmmm. I really don't think you need to "suck it up" after expressing what you need and knowing that your bf is not able or willing to give it to you. Why do you think you just have to put up with disappointment and frustration all the time, and not having the kind of exciting, exuberant lover you really want? All the hoping and wanting and wishing certainly does sound like a waste of your time and energy when you get so little in return. Sometimes we have to let go of people we love if our needs won't be met - that doesn't mean either of you are bad people, but simply that it isn't working out. And then sometimes we find out that it wasn't really love but just a wistful hope of love. So, maybe you need to assert yourself and see if there is someone else out there more compatible for you.
Last edited by nycindie; 06-06-2012 at 06:34 PM.