Hey! Happy new blog
Keen to hear more of your story as it unfolds.
I'm interested in the way you talk about friendship, in particular about emotional connections "beyond friendship". By this do you mean sexual tension (even if unfulfilled?) Or something like a spiritual connection that feels like it could naturally flow into physical closeness (but not something you are actively flirting with?) If it's the second, then what makes you feel guilty about having these connections, when you're in a monogamous relationship?
Not sure if you understand the way I'm putting things. I guess the fuzzy notion of friendship and romance has tripped me over a few times. I feel like I don't experience things in the terms you put them... but I'm very curious to understand more about this perspective!