So, I had a long, pain inducing discussion with my husband. I told him everything in my mind, all ugly details and fears, my lack of lust and my waning interest. There were some tears, but sometimes you have to tear something down before you can build it back up, right? Since that night things have been night and day! He has taken an interest in me again. He even expressed gratitude for that difficult conversation, because it helped him to see things clearly, it helped him to focus on real issues. Making it sound very serious brought it up in priority in his mind, I think.
So for right now, things are doing better. I am no fool, I know these results are temporary and that it takes work to get completely better, but I think we are on our way.
Thank you all for your support!
Have courage to continue this journey, for it holds nothing but lessons and wonders.