I like what you said about not wanting to use Ranger as a crush. Yeah, there will be good aspects to not being able to hang with him this weekend. Not only the crutch thing, but also: emotions that may arise for you from E being with Sync may not be easily set aside in order to focus on enjoying yourself in a new relationship experience of your own. Basically, you may need familiar friends and hot tubs more than new sexy lover
Also YES to the way you put the wanting thing (E and Sync wanting to spend time with each other even though it could be a difficult adjustment for you). From the other perspective, it's hard to realise and own that you want something even though
it's going to be more of a challenge to your partner than if you didn't want this thing. Yah, darned reality... it's a heady adventure, eh. At least not dull.
If it was easy, everyone would be doing it
Haha, yes. But as you said, so worth it. (Well has been so far for me)
Hang in there x