I spoke to my husband again last night and we decided to separate. I told him exactly what I wanted and how I was feeling deprived. He said he would never been okay to the idea of an open marriage even we were just with women. I'm not entirely heartbroken since there were some revelations brought up that made me see that I'm probably better off without him.
Thank you for all of your help and concerns. I feel that this site will be beneficial to me becoming accustomed to this life.