soo, this weekend...
as time goes by, more and more, I think she wants to be poly/open herself, but doesn't want to/can't deal with the idea of me being poly/open. She bacame very upset about it this weekend, and kept telling me it was because she isn't good enough. I don't know how to convince her otherwise.
the thing I don't understand is when she has her defenses down, she does fine with the idea, even encourages it. But to get the defenses down is next to impossible. It sometimes takes liquid courage, or other inebhreating substances to let down her guard. Once that hapens, she is not only ok with the idea, but very much encourages it.
the question I suppose then, is how to get the defenses/inhibitors down without the mind alterers. Hmmm, most intriguing.