I think I empathize somewhat with you MONO in that I have never been able to be a 'part' of a community. I long ago learned to contribute this to my inability to live with myself if I compromise my internal being just to please a social group.
There are some people who just are not meant to belong to more than a handful of very carefully selected people. For some of us, 'community' is simply not an option.
There's nothing wrong with that. I personally have always felt that there is no law that says one must love all the people who surround ones beloved.
With all my heart I will love and not fail,
With all my soul I will fly and not fall.