Ladyjools, trust me when I tell you I know how good it feels to know that I am not alone. It was a scary thing to press the post button and now I am so happy that I have.
Redpepper, You have no need to apologize. I am so happy that you have healed from whatever your experiences were. It always makes me smile when I think of a woman out there shedding that one thankful tear of completion. It's our warrior cry
And so to update, I found that connection
It was great! It took alot of focus on my part. I had to make myself do things that I don't normally do like maintain eye contact the entire time. It also took alot of prep from my fiance as well, but he's always been very loving and gentle never rushed, so all it took was me concentrating and being accepting of it on a much deeper level.
I won't go into details out of respect for my fiance and my "friend" who also reads the forum, but doesn't post.
This is going to take some work to where I don't have to focus so hard and just come naturally, but like I said it's fun practice. Lol
Really and truly, thanks for sharing this with me.