Advice on how to proceed
After a very rocky and unpleasant start to dating other people, my partner agreed to a brief moratorium. It will be up soon.
We agreed previously that if we found someone to date together, casually, it would be a better approach that what we tried before (him finding a secondary).
But right now I feel less than zero interest in dating. And I think it would be unfair to ask for an extension on the break, and it would probably cause a massive conflict.
I have been reading everything I can get my hands on, trying to "fix" myself and deal with my jealousy/insecurity issues.
But when I think about going back to the arrangement we had before, with my partner dating someone else, I get panicky and terrified.
I feel so stuck. Any advice would be welcome.