He knows I really like her and he is not entirely okay with that.
I wasn't beating around the bush anymore but delivering it to him lowly.
And then about an hour ago I just 'vomited' my feelings out, just before he had to go to his night shift.
I really love him and don't want to hurt him in any way.
But at the same time I can't delete my feelings, just can't!
So I called the hotline since bad thought crossed my mind.
The man there was somewhat familiar with polyamory (that was a good surprise)
Bf agreed for me to meet her 1-2 times a week, and that she sometimes can come sleep here.
Obviously it is not enough for me, but with time I can see that he shows signs of being more comfortable with the idea.
The man on the phone said that my bf is just a rare and a rare and a wonderful man for not leaving me right away but somehow trying to understand the problem.
I know that it is true, but I also know that he thinks that if I don't talk about something it doesn't exist.. I wish he could come and check out the polyamory world.
I can't make a decision,no matter what I just can't.
I think I am going to go with that I can see her few times a week and all that I wrote before and time ill tell..
I have no other idea what I can do.
Last edited by insanity; 04-18-2012 at 04:52 AM.