Fortunately, the crush on Arthur is easing into a much more stable sense of affection, and just sweet pleasure to have his company (or to hear from him during the week).
Hunter and I continue to talk regularly about jealousy, our relationship, and our future. He has made it clear that I have a place in his home, which is very meaningful for me. It is particularly significant because I have been entertaining a fantasy (which is starting to look like reality) of quitting my job next year to hike the Appalachian Trail. (Dreams matter, ya'll) To think that I have a real home to come back to, well, that helps me feel like I have roots for the first time in years.
Over the past three years that I've been dating Hunter and Imp, I've been stuck in a secondary mindset, not wanting to ask too much of them, or to ask for too much of a space in their lives. I was never expressly secondary-- that's just something I put on myself to manage my own expectations. It's time for me to adjust my thinking.