I think I did misread you! I apologize if I came across as defensive (probably because I feel that way somewhat). This is all really, really new to me. One of my best friend describes me as high-strung. I guess that really shows here. O_O;
All of you have my apologies if I was harsh, I didn't mean to be. I truly appreciate your insight. It's difficult for me to get what I think across without being forceful, the idea of expressing what I actually feel VS what everyone else expects to hear is only 2-3 years old for me (besides poly I've been working on a load of stuff).
I will think about what you have said for a while before adding anything else...