I wish you all the luck.. and love.
People tend to hold strongly to their beliefs in general.. but impossibly so in the "love" department.
I'm still green.. but right now, I can't see how closing my heart can be a god thing. I've recently started meditating.. mostly to find a way to let go of these emotions.. of the "irrational need" of having my heart open..
Where is the peace in "more is better".. was the phrase i contemplated many times..
Well.. i got a lot calmer.. and think meditation is truly unique and something everyone could benefit from.. But it didn't help me let go of the need of having an open heart. Instead, It assured me to have it open anyway, and let go of the fear.
Even though... my experience doesn't fit into a happy ending category...