Don't worry too much about the picture you're painting -- no one here is going to think you're "bad" for having wants and needs! That just means you're human.
Me, 30ish bi female, been doing solo poly for roughly 5 years. Gia, Clay, and Pike, my partners. Davis, ex/friend/"it's complicated." Eric, Gia's husband. Bee, Gia and Eric's toddler.